| October 15th; i'm sooooo sincere | |
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I am soveryhomicidal right now. i don't even know why. I mean, I fought with shannon and nothing would give me more pleasure than to just go out and use a sword to hack some random person to bits. That's me, miss inappropriateurges. if you think I should be put away for my little urges, go ahead and mail me. i don't get enough email.I'm loooooneley. i need more intellectual stimulation and I am all of a sudden disgusted with Heinous and BBSs in general. i think this was the reason I was created without anger. I don't think normal people's first response to something like anger is to want to kill people. Anyway. Someone with scary hair just walked by my desk. i'm sounding a lot disjointed to myself, which probably means there's stuff going on that i'm steadfastly ignoring because it's not good to freak out at work. I had a long talk about insanity with shannon today (that's where we started fighting) and it turns out that he doesn't think that I should hold his body language as a better indicator of what's going on with him than what he's saying or doing. Wrong. i don't pet a growling dog or a hissing cat, and i'm certainly not going to approach someone who looks mad. Someone whose body language is saying "get the hell away from me or I will kill you" and whose mouth is telling you to come closer. Or who says yes while they're shaking their head. Of course, there are people who lie with their bodies. I do it, all the time. i like doing it. I'm so sincere. I can convince people of anything given time enough and room enough. Heck, if I hadn't slipped up and let the gynecologist do an STD test on me a few years back, my mom would still think i'm a virgin. And that, my friends, is the farthest thing from the truth that there is. Is there anything more disturbing than seeing an ex and having nothing to talk about them with? ohyeah. I made some changes to the poetry pages. I don't know how long it'll last. I need to figure out something to do with the quotes to set them off. "I'm crazy. love me."
Sounds: Ladyhawke Original Motion Picture Soundtrack Words: Prozac Nation, Elizabeth Wurtzel; About Face, Cooper
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